Traditions

Sunday's have become a family day of get together. We have dinner as a huge family of 20 plus. We seem to be rotating between houses and it seems to be working. The flip side of this is we are CRAZY!

As a family we have our ups and downs and it sure does show when we are together on such a regular basis. For instance last weekend my aunt "She who shall not be named" got a little to deep into the bottle and began to cry and talk about how sad she was for me and my family due to my separation. Now most would think awww thats so sweet.. Well it was NOT... Let me tell you my aunt believes that I am a GREAT package..And I do tend to agree with here on that point.. I mean Im just saying..
qw1. I am beautiful
2. I am highly educated'
3. I am young (she is 50+)
4.I am beautiful
5. I deserve better
6. I am beautiful...

Ok you get the idea right? LOL I can do better, I deserve better, my kids need a father...AND of course I AM BEAUTIFUL and smart and I deserve better. LOL Ok OK... I get it in her mind my husband has done the EVILS of all evils he has entered into another relationship and my aunt feels a shame for me. I get it.. but I do not feel the same way... Instead what I realize is that I do not want to begin or continue, or foster, or support a TRADITION of separation and divorce. I do not want my children or their friends or my family to see me in a place of supporting the continued damage of my family. Is this easy? HECK no.. but I truly believe it is very much worth it.

I believe it is worth the time and effort to teach my children the value in FIGHTING for things that are hard, for standing for the things they believe in even when others do not support them or understand their motives, I want my children to understand that when we make mistakes there are consequences for our actions and we have to be willing to fix them, that even when we are hurting we can still be kind, loving forgiving and caring.

I want my children and family to know that ANYTHING is possible with GOD and that even when we do not understand how things are going to work out we still keep UNWAVERING faith that it WILL work out. This is not a easy task nor is it one that I want to have to be traveling on... But I am. so I will and I will hopefully impart a new set of values and traditions to my children and family and friends.. There are other options and I am choosing to explore them.