Yesterday was my first challenge in hiding. My husband text me because as he stated " this was stupid, took to long, and was not needed". I ignored his text. He then text me again stating that he had done what I had asked... I ignored his text.. When that did not elicit any response he then stated that he was doing something else....
It took everything in me to delete each of those message. To neither respond in words OR actions was challenging as well. Sure I did not SAY anything but if I reacted to his texts that is still a response. That was a very hard choice for me. I wanted to give in like I always do but if I want to elicit change then I have to show change.
I am not mad at my husband but what we have been doing is NOT working and I can no longer enable, encourage, no support his actions. I have to remove myself from him as much as possible and extremely limit our contact. Its amazing that he has asked me to discontinue being his wife because he has moved on and is in a relationship. I am giving him what he has asked for, but often what we ask for is NOT what we expect nor want.
I have held up an important part of his life and now I am finally able to let it go. It hurts but if I want my marriage to survive I have to do things that I am not use to and pray for and believe in restoration and recovery. This is only day 4 I pray for no more days but I have to be honest and say I dont know how and I dont know when but I do KNOW that it will be done.
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