Today I turned 33. I wonder why we ask people how do you feel? I mean I am not sure HOW 33 is suppose to feel for a few reasons.
1st I have never been 33 before
2nd I have only been 33 like 1 day
3rd WHAT does any age feel like?
I guess for me as I have gotten older the age seems less significant. I am not waiting for the golden ages, 16, 18, 21, 25 or 30 to come along. They came and went and the privileges with them. Now its just living. I am trying not to make this year a year to remember to be honest. In fact I wish it would just float away quietly.
This year has been the first year without to many things that I dont want to hold on to. Our first new year apart, and birthdays for him and some of our kids, and now mine. I Dont want to hold those times close to me I would rather they just slide into the forgotten, it happened but it wasent really important box of my mind.
I would rather make new memories and new times later. But for now today.. I am 33 and ready for a nap.
