Im not a Christian.. really?

I believe in 1 GOD, but I am not a Christian. Saying I am not a Christian to myself and then out loud to others was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I get "the look" YOU KNOW the look! The look that says OK here we go!

BUT WAIT!!! I am not a Atheist nor Agnostic, nor a Theist or a Deism. I am not a Mormon, or a Jew, nor am I a Muslim. I was raised a Christian but I always had questions. I have always questioned the"trinity" idea as well as Jesus being the son of God as well as God like.

Im simple in my beliefs.

1. There is 1 God
2. There is NO one who is comparable to God
3. There is NOTHING that is comparable to GOD
4. Jesus Did exist and did walk this earth but he is not the son of God
5. Jesus is NOT God

My father, mother, and great-grandfather were all ministers. I am not a heathen nor am I lost or mistaken. I believe that a faith walk takes considerable strength to look within your self. To question what you have learned or think you know against what you have researched. As my life has changed I have too, I have had times when I was VERY active in my church activities and other times where years have gone by and I have not participated in church services, but I have never questioned the existence of GOD.

I really enjoy some of the foundations and principles of Christianity but Christianity is to me a Follower of Christ which is Jesus and the believe that he is he person who is my intercessor to heaven. This I do not believe. I believe that GOD says there is NO GOD but me, A GOD that tells me I only need to come to him, A GOD that demands that I worship NO one but him. Christianity that I have experienced has not done that. I should ONLY pray to GOD. I should ONLY worship and give thanks to GOD. I have found myself more and more sure of that point. So now I have to find a place that allows me to reconcile my deep seated beliefs.

I have said what I am not I guess I should say what I am? I am searching. I am not a person to take lightly where I stand nor do I want to be a zealot in my search. I mean we have all meet a person who changes to a new religion and turns into a person whom no one can relate to.

I want to have a stronger relationship with GOD, and I am currently working to make that happen. Where will I end up I am not sure but I am busy searching.