The truth is better then fiction..

I should write a book or at least thats what my GF told me. My life story has the tendency to feel surreal at times.. But one thing I have learned is that I AM NOT alone.. that there are others who have had similar issues and similar challenges. Ill tell all or as much as I can in bits and pieces because when I begin to read a blog I want to have a back story, heres the beginning of mine.

I married my husband 9 years ago 3/02 and we had our first date one year to the date before that. Our marriage has been anything but easy, filled with many challenges, and yet I don't want another person in this world. We have had our share of extraordinary times over the past 10 years and I am sure that we will have many more in the years to come. In the mean time I am doing what I do best which is living.

My husband and I met on the internet. Talked for a few weeks, had our first date and were inseparable from that first date... really. We never spent a night apart until recently. He has been and continues to be my best friend. He has supported me though my dreams of obtaining my education and raising our kids. Yet he is a stubborn man who is selfish and vengeful.  He is hard headed and one tracked minded.

I am all of the above. I have been unforgiving, harsh, stubborn, demanding, bad tempered, unsupportive, and a whole host of other things.. Lets just say I was hell on wheels and I am working on my recovery lol. My road to recovery came at a very very harsh and high price. I am separated from my family and children and husband and I am hurting every day with missing them. I have faith that we are going to be reunited as a family and I will have restoration of my marriage soon.

So what got us here you might be asking... It started with hurt feelings, then a lack of communication, then distance, which was followed by hurting words and actions, add more distance, and then we had lost of trust. It took years but made a horrible mistake and I had an affair.. then he found out, and now he is having an affair. I am in no way saying my husband is a victim and nor am I saying that I am a victim instead. I am saying that neither of us stopped a problem that started off small and now has grown to be the ugly monster that we are dealing with now.